Happy Birthday !!! my 20th birthday .. *yippy*

Heee ..happy birthday to me happy birthday to me ... happy birthday to meeeeee .. .happy birthday to ME ME ME ... wahhaha Finally it's my turn.. wow ... phone start to flood with wishes from friends...heee ... and wishes from my brother.. ^ ^ hehe ... " im so happy that he called me ... and say "Happy Birthday to my lovely sis" heeee I got a surprise from someone... is a bday gift from hk... " i open it up ... hee .. it's a cutie pooh bear and a small card" sweet yeah !!! so happy as if im in cloud nine...

birthday Celebration

Well Well.. this is a combine celebration with my pal.. juan... haha .. we went for movie and pizza after that " its fun after all " Heee .. but i cant wait for tomorrow.. cause it's my turn.. and im going to celebrate with my PARENTS and i will have a call from brother .... HEee ..... Heeeee .....

Sweet words..

true friends says: Hear this voice from deep insideIt's the call of your Close your eyes and your will findThe way out of the dark true friends says: Here I amWill you send me an angel Here I amIn the land of the morning star true friends says: Dearest sunshine, i miss u and dont think that i will ever forget u, u gave my life a new meaning, u made me who i am now, and i wish that i been able to do the same for u, i will try my best to make things right, to make u smile, cuz ur my sunshine and i'm ur takecare always, and one day i'll be the one to takecare of u , but beleive me when i say, u never left my mind and heart, ur my sunshine,..smile and shine,,,my sunshine,,,,i'll always face the sun to feel u shining at me,....marry xmas and ho ho ho true friends says:dearest sunshine true friends says:u gave me strength and made me smile when my eyes was full of tears, thank u true friends says:and wish u a life time of blessing true friends says:thank u dearest sunshine

Re: christMas... ^ ^ HO !! HO!! HO!!

Well well ... it's xmas... yeah !! merry little christmas to myself, my parents and my one and only lovely brother bear and everyone out there... heEe!!! Just got home from count down.. its pretty fun due to the atmosphere.. unfortunate my palz lost her hp... *sob sob* somehow.. not so enjoyable after that... When i was in the bus on my way home ...a silly msg me say wanna give me X'mas prezzie.. " i was like to surprise as i never buy anything for him.." so i was like huh... so late le.. where to get something for exchange... well ... got prezzie just take it.. "so happy" he waited me at my house downstair and pass it to me .. sent me back home then he went home.. it's a cute little maro.. haha ... "thanks silly"

I can love you like that... I would make you my world

I can love you like that I would make you my world And give my heart to you If you were my prince You are the one whom I needed for all I'm sure I will not hold anything back I will show you everything that is precious to me And that's you I can love you like that forever and ever My love for you is unlike a dream It's real It's everlasting I will never make a promise to you If I'm not going to keep it I say forever you are mine, means forever you will be mine And I would swear that this is true Baby open your eyes and feel it And you will know this is not a dream

Thank you baby

You're all I ever needed You're all I ever wanted I dream of you quite often Hoping that you are doing fine with no worries and sorrows Every night, wishing that you are here right here with me You are my joy As you are my silly batman who loves to see the green world with a great SMILE And willing to be my silly clown You are my comfort As your arms are wide enough for that warm hug You are my sense of security As you will always be there with me And you know where to look for me without me telling you where am I That's what I'm touched with As our hearts are linked together You are sexy As the sun set over the horizon You are passion As the morning sun rises brightly You are my life And this is as important to me which I can't live without You are my one and only love Which nature meant Smiles came from the strength that you had given me With you by my side My heart is complete with all the smiles and happiness As long as you are there I had got everything I needed Thank you baby

It's you .. that makes me feel this way

Sometime I wonder are you important to me Are you meant to be that important Tell me baby How can I smile with tear in my eyes That's how I feel When I start missing you I never met a guy who was so damn sweet like honey just like you do Can't wait to see you again I never found a true love that was so complete Till I found you Am I dreaming Am I I feel so lost So lonely When you are not there Simply it's you That makes me feel this way

Cherish this love

My favourite and lovely song.. i found that the lyric of this song is really meaningful, sweet and touching.. Simply love it.. As it really say out my feelings and my thoughts.. Love is to feel it not to say it ...but it's to feel it... [Cherish this love lyric] Sorry for making you cry For turning away As you walk on by But baby I need to be strong And I need to move on with my life You know it's not that I don't care So don't make me feel bad it's not fair Baby you know all the reasons I made my decisions in life Now a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do And a boy has to become a man And I'm sorry for saying But it's love that I need And that love I just can't get from you It's funny how things turned around One day I am lost Then I'm found It happened so fast I knew it would last From the first time I first looked in your eyes Although it's so soon this I know I'll never be on my own Dreams turn to tears She buries my fears And I will cherish this love ever more You know it's not easy to do Turning my back on me and you But baby I need someone there Who will love me and care for my life Smiles they turned into tears And all of my dreams They all disappeared Baby this cannot be right So I'll turn down the light On our love Now a boy's gotta do What a boy's gotta do And a girl has to do what she can And I'm sorry for saying But it's love that I need And that love I just can't get from you It's funny how things turn around One day I am lost Then I'm found It happened so fast I knew it would last From the first time I first looked in your eyes Although it's so soon this I know I'll never be on my own Dreams turn to tears She buries my fears And I will cherish this love ever more And everything that could gone wrong Has gone wrong at some time Now I can see the light It was love at first sight And I'm not gonna let this girl go It's funny how things turn around One day I am lost Then I'm found It happened so fast I knew it would last From the first time I first looked in your eyes Although it's so soon this I know I'll never be on my own Dreams turn to tears She buries my fears And I will cherish this love ever more Yes I Will With you

you you you....

Someone to love Someone to touch Someone to hold Someone to know If you are by my side everything will be alright But now I'm all alone in a dark room Looking at the ceiling and walls Wondering how are you now. And hoping that you are here with me It's the purest of pain in me Can you feel it It's inside me which makes me feel like I’m dying I wish I could tell you that But whenever I see you Everything is fine As you are there to be my only clown to give me back my fantasy And this is the things I need To let my world filled with happiness instead of emptiness You are the only one It's you Spartanly it's you My dearest I really do not know the reason why In my mind, my dream is full of your shadow and soul What make it so special. Is this fate that brought both of us together? Can you tell me why? All nights I just want to dream another dream And another dream of you This is my sweet and lovable dream which I'm yearning for all the time You give me that feeling Which brought me back to my life Without loneness

Re: hope.. it's hope

Hope that things can rewind Hope that memories can always be there Hope that fate is still there Hope that things will be fine Why am I hoping for so much? It's because of you All because of you I'm doing all these Thinking what should I do to make u smile again Thinking what should I do to make you feel warmth Thinking what should I do to make everything perfect Just for you I will try And try And try

Feel it

Across thousands miles Baby I swear to you That I'll be there in anytime you want me too I'm true to you So please don't leave me alone cause I need you I really hope that I could talk to you all night Just to hear you breathe Listen to your heart beats And being close with you Just like living in my Dreams Close enough to see you Close enough to touch face and feel you Close enough to have trust in you Close enough in any other things I just wanna be close to you Words can't tell anything from your eyes Unless you feel it Feel it deeply with your heart

Touching words from him....

11/24/2004 3:20:54 AM From:true friends To: - --(*) eRin..[Love is when you look into someone's eyes] i alway want to write the perfect thing for u , but when i get to know u , i found out that there will be nothing perfect enough for u, but i will always try, even if i know i will never make it , hoping that one word can make u see what's in me, ,,,,,,,,,for u , and only for u, i will always write, what i feel inside , and one day u will understand what u mean to me....only for u

Nice And Special One...

11/24/20043:14:04 AM From: true friends To:- --(*) eRin..[Love is when you look into someone's eyes] When I was lost, I could not see All the beauty and wonder, wrapping around me. I was alone, dreaming of you Oh I could not imagine this dream coming true. So much joy now, in all that I touch You make me feel everything so much. I will love you for the earth at my feet. I will love you for the sun in the sky. I will love you for the falling rain, I will love you for the heart that could break. I will love you for the dreams that we share. I will love you for the falling rain, Face in the wind, tears from my eyes Baby, where have you been? But I was, always, waiting for you. To pull back the door. To take me by the hand and lead me through. This whole world was a stranger to me. (stranger to me) Now you have opened my heart to everything. Like a whisper in a dream, you walk softly into my life with love and sweet emotion and as I gaze into your eyes I see the beauty that God has created. And I love you girl, Now and Forever...

I'm missing you

I'm missing you Even though you are not right here by my side Things between us are going too wide I will give the whole world to u Anything you are asking me I would do it for you But I would rather walk away Walk away from this place If the love is already gone between us But I'm missing you for real You said that you love me, you miss me Baby sometimes you just saying the words, I'm afraid that our fate is going to be over And that's the last thing I can feel when you left If you got something to tell me Please don't keep it inside If your heart is not real, Please do not try to fake up on how you feel If it's so I can't make you change your mind And I would just walk away, walk away , walk away...

" OK baby"

Today is a fun loving day teaching Raphael.. He is so funny.. I taught him Money calculations today... And whatever i asked him to do today He will replied me" OK baby" Then i would say " What ok baby? You are a big baby" " No, you are baby, Haha... baby" "HAha" i laughed, wondering whats in his mind.. "Can you buy me a Monkey for Xmas?" "What monkey?" "Monkey Pencil Box, Can?" "Ok i like Monkey , Heeee!!" "Eh!! Raphael..You like monkey or money?" "Monkey, OK baby..." I wondered in my mind.. he will be a romantic chap when he grow up and this makes me feel Really indeed a silly, fun-loving,cute and lazy boy....

Wondering in my MIND

Today, is really special... Someone had told me something which he had kept in his heart for a LOng time..Well im surprise... is it true ?? or fake, i Wondered in my mind... Well , how should i face it, i do not know, AVOID or remain and see how things go ... Well let fate decide it ...

Daddy's Birthday

Happy Birthday to my Daddy... Heeee ... I brought my daddy to Holland to eat BBQ stingray and some other chinese Food.. *Yummy* And i treat my dad a bottle of beer Well i can see his smile on his face...I'm feeling so Happy... Happy Happy evening!!!! NExt YeaR will Be something Special FOr HIm.. Rather then Just FOod AlOne...

my Little Cute Student Raphael

He is so cute... And he is So fun to be taught He asked me a question today.. "Teacher, what time my mum come back?" "How i know, is your mum not mine." "I dont like my mum to come back, cause she will scold me." "She scold you because you are playing during my lesson, thats why." "and you always like to hehe Hahaha to me." "Haha".. both of us laugh.. "Are you tired, wanna do some colouring?" "Dont want, wait my mummy scold me again!!" "nevermind, Raphael your mummy is not back yet!!" "Ok you colour this one i colour that one." "Ok" Well he is only a kindergarden kid, i dont wanna stress him so much, as during lesson there should be some work and fun, if not it will drive him nuts "Am i right?" Even though at times he might be mischievous, but boys are like that, loves to play and make stupid faces all the time. "It's really a great pleasure teaching him even though he does makes me angry"

Crazy for him.. just him

Crazy, I'm crazy for him I can hear his heart beat thousand miles away Every time I see him smiling to me, My heart starts pounding Every beat of my heart is telling him how deep I'm in love with him He's the one who gives me love, its crazy love He got a sense of humor when I'm feeling down He takes all my troubles, all my grief, all my lonesome soul away He gives me sweet loving to lighten up my life He said we are night creatures and out heart linked together And that's what we feel it It's the feelings This makes me mellow down to my soul I know he got work to do But when he is back I will shine the brightest light for him just like the morning sunshine Showing my love to him And telling him You are Mine and I wanna make you my one and only one

Boring life ^ ^

Life is so boring ... Where has my bear gone to?? my one and only brother bear, a bullshiter ..HahA.. Wow .. this shinhwa MV really ROCKS me... the MOves .. its the moves... Aiya.. wanna go rob the bank.. can i ?? And i also long time nv go do some excited stuff with SomEONE .. that SOMEONE .. of cause is the "MEI NU" .. hhaaa " PREtty COW".. my PALZ... Hahah .. Whom i can share my happiness and sorrows with.. She's so special MAN... REALLY REALLY SPECIAL.. She is THE BEST ... babe .. in the WORLD ok.. "Baby.. if you are reading this, Remember my words, NO WORRIES.. everything will be ALright and you can get what you want.. what your craving for.. which are those things you told me LAst midnight..." OEI.. when go midnight show man ... "ASK you bf drive his RED Porsche out and on the way fetch me OK !!! " Lets rock the TOWN ..

Craving for ..

Simply Special When i first met you; Your moves Your dance Your steps Your expression Your smile Your Stunt and Cool look Makes me remember you I'm craving for you Craving for you Like hell...

Perfect Man

Perfect .. Perfect ... Perfect... You are the one .. Perfect in my eyes Perfect in my heart You are my perfect man I want you in my life Baby ....

Crazy midnight day 2

Madness Midnight, "Damn it" how come i can't sleep?? Well then i started to think.. Hmm .. why not included my life Journal in here ....Only poetry.. "Bored".. even though is unique.. i want to be more unique.. i want to have BOTH.. * Heee, giggle* Wow.. now is approaching 4.30 am and i can sms SOMEone to wake up and PEE... "Haha Ha".. it's Damn fun..Well in the morning i think this person is going to SLAP and Chop me Off... my eyes are still so big .. HOW come man.. at least my luck is good .. " my msn list still got ppl Online" so just bullshit ..*L0L*

Here comes the day

Here comes the day The day when I’m able to see you again My baby, I wanna fix a lifetime with you Just hold me, simply hold me As your arms keep away the loneliness When I look into your eyes I realize All I need is you in my life Without you Life wouldn't mean a thing to me It's just emptiness without you And this is how it takes my breathe It makes me happy when I'm thinking of you It makes my heart start beating even faster when I see you This is the way of love Which I have never felt so great before Baby, I want to make you mine Till the end of life

To the Count of 1,2,3

One... it's a dream going to come true Two...I just wanna be with you Three...You are the only one for me To the count of one, two, three Say farewell to the dark and lonely soul of mine I see the coming of the moon This makes my life begin as the moonlight shines I started to breathe into a new life of mine When you came into this lonely heart of mine Making me falling in love with you Things work out themselves It's just like chemistry between us Nothing else but emotions Once you understand what it's all about And how I feel towards you Nothing can tear us apart Cause.... You got the sense, You are able to feel how I feel Just like how I feel about you Even though we are thousand miles apart You... It's you Who have got the keys to my heart and unlock it It's so incredible I'm feeling I'm in heaven to have you with me It feels so great ... So great ..

Needless upon waitin

In my life I have been waiting for someone And now There isn't any need for waiting Waiting for that someone to come into my life is really a hard time for me But I'm lucky enough As that someone is already here It's just about you You are the one and only one And it's factual With you i can always feel your warmness Your understanding Your speaking with great fervour Your sense of humour In my mind when I woke up My mind is full of your images Cause I need you always by my side Staying close to me Telling me that you'll be right there to love me a lifetime Telling me that you will And you will be mine For all time you promise me that you'll love me forever Will you?

You are Simply Special

You are the moon who light up my life Unfortunately, forever only lasted just a day and not a life time Without you by my side is like a vision of a lonely life Dreams of dreams will only remains as dream And I believe that love is so strong that will carry on Please take my dreams away All I want is reality All the emptiness in me Shows everything you meant to me Which I could not hide It started so strangely Just like a foolish game But I believe it's not just a game It's fate which brought us together When I'm thinking of you I see lightning It's strike so fast Just like the moment when I first met you Everybody asked me Why, why did I cry for you What is so special that I see in you Well, you are always the special ones in my eyes Always Always in my heart

You are important to me

Lately, I feel that something is missing. I do not know where I wanna go What I wanna do I realized that the sweetest thing in my heart could ever find Is you I never felt this way before since the day I gave my love away to you Everytime I close my eyes I realize that I can't live without you by my side Everytime I see you I can feel the warmth you gave me Everytime when you gonna leave me alone I can feel the pain Everytime I cry I see you placing all the attention on me when I'm feeling down Your laughter, Your smile, Your care, Your everything, Are the sweetest thing which I could not find And how is it now that I can tell you “I LOVE YOU” You are the one Who gave me more than love than anyone else But I never thought that all the feelings I cared were all for you It's never too late to reveal my feelings to you As the flame inside of me will never die

Crazy

Madness NOOn , it's simply madness .. at first i thought have a site to upload all my "touching" poems, unfortunately i do not have the DREAMWEAVER MX," sick" well, then i thought of why not i just upload my Poems at Blogger.. HahA ... thanks JEZ for giving an inspiration " You got BLOG" " No , i don't have it" "Oh ya.. why not i use blog to upload my poems" "Not bad right" Then i start to register in blog.com at first .. then i found ..i do not like the templates not really that nice "Yo hows your blog?" "Dont know still figuring how to create" "You know le must teach me ne" "Sure why not" "But the background not nice one, so sian" "Which blog your sign up?" "Blog.com loh" "Most common is Blog.com and Blogspot.com" "I saw my frens one so nice" "Aiya why dont tell me earlier, ok i go cancel Blog.com and reg the blogspot" "Hmm... blogspot is better ... they say can create your own template, but how , where to upload the background i want ?? " "Erm .. dont know le .. use html one?" "i know but where to upload the background and link to it?" "Aiya build a site is better man...but nevermind la .. this hosting also not bad.. but mine not so nice ne.."

Cruel to the EYES

Cruel to the eyes Can't sleep at night Without you by my side Tell me why Without you I can't breathe easy Can't have any sweet dreams I want to forget everything But why did you make me remember Why Can you don't be so cruel to me Let me breathe easy Just for once, Just for once Once in the life time we had sweet memories But what is over is over Just let it be baby Let me go and lead in the life Which belongs to me? Belongs to me Can you? Make my dreams come true…

Every Night i can FEEL you Right Beside me

Every night I can feel you right beside me You are just as important to me You are my life You are the one who lighten up my life Without worries and sorrows During my exam period I feel Stress out But with you by my side Supporting me, Wishing me, Comfort me, I feel touched I found that I'm so lucky to have you Even though we are far apart I can always feel that you are just right here with me The instinct you gave me is so special That I had not had before Whenever I feel that my hope is gone You are the one who give me strength to live on But whenever you are in moodiness I'm craving and hoping that I’ll be there To cheer you up, To brighten you up, To console you And seeing you having a cheerful resilient with a WIDE smile on your face Out of my dreams And in my life You are the one Whom I care the most I don't mind being a clown Acting stupid face and saying some lame jokes just to make you smile All I want is your smile Which is the one and only “smile, etc from ear to ear” from you? Do you get me Do you hear me Can you feel me I'm sure you can I'm certain about it.

Longing for you

I'm longing for your SMILE .. Your Voice Your face Your eyes Your emotions Your sweet talks It's all so special to me Which I can't forget Can't forget Even when I'm closing my eyes I'll be thinking of you Dreaming of you All these cause pain But I really wish that all these pain can be wash away I really wish that But I think it will never be till I see you again You are the special ones Who took my heart away I'm just a heartless and lonely soul Living without you by my side when I’m sad, scared or happy Can you hear the words I said Can you feel it Can you hear me calling for you everyday and nights I wonder in my mind… Wondering what's the answer

Can't Bare you to leave me !!

A day with you is sweet and fun If I have time I would want to spend the rest of my life with you You are the one You are the one You are the one Whom I can trust Whom I can feel Whom I can play with Whom I care There are so many reasons that I need you in the rest of my life Without you I wouldn't be staying alive I really hope those days of memories with you Will not be easily erased by the sea water I hope that those days being with you will not come to an end I hope that I could have another chance to have a walk with you, Another chat with you, Another fun with you Another movie with you, Another fun pictures taking with you, Another dinner with you, Another shopping with you, Another fight with you, I know that I'm craving for too much But I just can't bared you to live me so soon So soon So soon I really hope that those times can turned back But I know it would be impossible No matter where you are Where you had gone to I will always remember you And you are the one who is always in my heart Just like diamonds My lovely brother……

What is love

☆☆☆ Love is understanding not demanding Love is showing your emotion Love is showing your care and concern Love is blind Love comes with a start and an end Love needs connection to build our life Love is nothing without you Love is sweet Love is romantic Love is speaking to one another with feelings Love has good and bad times Love is pain Love can't be proven to ones in words but in actions Love wont be complete without you Love is not a word to be said out all the time but to feel in deep inside Baby I need you To make everything right To make my feelings to you I just wanna tell you I need you For the rest of my life I want to be at your side No matter what I want you to be the one To hold my heart To hug me To kiss me To Love me As love will come to an end It's just the matter of time But I wish it will never comes to an end Till I met you Never … Never… Never… Ever….

Someone

When I first met you I had sense something Sense a sense of security Sense of touched Its just like a dream When I first talk to you My heart starts to beat And I know that I had fallen in love with you You can say I'm nuts It's a kind of feelings in my heart It's so special And in my mind I can't stop thinking of you I'm wondering what's going on with me The feeling is so strong that I can't imagine I had met someone once again Someone who is coming into my life Someone who filled my heart with warmth Someone who beats my heart Someone who to hold Someone to love and being loved Someone who could guide me through I really want you to be that someone Really meant it I love you ….

I need you in my LIfe and DreaMs

In my world There is darkness But with you by my side I began to see lights Lights from your eyes Am I dreaming Dream of your touch while you are away,I dream of your smile all through the day, I remember the day,You came into my life, You are the one who found me once again I can't blame you for not staying with me at all times At least your soul is with me To lighten up my life I rather to have you by my side than in my dreams Sitting on the beach looking at the moonlight It's so beautiful Isn't it I really miss all the times being with you Missing all the fun Even though there are bad times I'd rather have bad times with you, than with someone else And no one can ever replace you in my heart No one else You are the only one who holds my heart Forever and ever My life is complete with you And for the rest of my life I would need you Which is that I won't denied I need you in both of my life and in my dreams

Whenever I talk to you

Whenever I talk to you I can feel you I can feel your emotions I can feel what you meant in your words It so sweet of you I really meant if from the bottom of my heart You are Someone whom I can trust Someone whom I can miss Someone whom I can talk to Someone whom I can depend on Someone whom I can share my sorrows with It's all because of you, I was able toGive my heart again, you gave me You gave me all the lights I will treasure it As I wouldn't want to let myself to live in darkness again

Between us there no Secrets

Between us there are no secrets I know that nothing can lies beyond your eyes So I never keep a secret from you However, sometimes I need to lie to you but I didn't meant it I couldn't face the truth with you Because I didn't want to lose you Even though, sometimes I said I hate you In my heart, I truly love and miss you When you are gone, I start to miss you every single minutes and seconds I really hate these pain feelings in me Sooner or later that you would find outYou know how much I care for you Just like you care for me And I would never want to cause you pain I know that there is no excuseHow I could ever treat my baby this way I really regret what I had done to you in the past Baby, please forgive me For each and every lie I want you to be The only one for me Forever and ever and ever and ever and ever

Special

As months passes I had been missing you You are my security As the knowledge that you will always be there Baby you are part of my life That I can't live without You are the warmth of my heart Just like the morning sun My heart is complete With the love we share And our love grows moreBeautiful each day... As long as our hearts are bond together No matter where we are The smiles, feelings and memory will always be there I will cherish the moment of time upon your return And I would spend every moment with you With you I can feel love is shining all around With the brightest of light It comes from somewhereSo deep within Which has a beginningAnd no end You are the one who brighten up my life You are the one who can stand my nonsense You are the one who always bear with my temperamental attitude Thanks baby I can't really express myself But I just wanted to say “I Love You” and “I miss you” With all the sweet memories You gave me before you left Are always kept inside my heart And it wont be easily erase