It's you

What my heart wants to say I do not know either You're sensational With you by my side I can feel sense of security Words are so touching And I have been blessed with you If my words don't come my way I still hope that you will know what my heart is going to tell Whenever you feel like you don't belong Or anything that goes wrong You can rest assured that I'm always with you all the time In every moment; Every minute; Every second No matter where you are I will always follow you I know that we are being drifted apart I'm for sure that I can feel you I can feel where you are As that feeling you gave me was so strong And I know that I'm with you With you all the time so does you I made you a promise that I shall forever be yours And not letting you to be alone when you are down You can rest assured that You laugh, I'll laugh You smile, I'll smile If you cry, I'll cry too You are my life My heart My soul My breath My dream Which I can't live without

Amazing Voice of MINE!!! *wink wink*

Werid... REally werid.. werid till im contented and happy..HA!!! I was studying just now till madness came about. Feeling so stress up and bored of reading my lecture notes. The most rediculous thing is that nothing went into my brain and i do not know what the hell am i studying. Wondering how am i going to pass all my common tests. Then i started to scream "GE", then ha!! guess what .. my brother really appeared online.. *amazing* It's really amazing.. Ha !! i began to laugh and laugh. NUTS... *are our hearts linked* and *isit true that he can hear me screaming for him* infact this was not the very first time that had happened... Hee!! he had received the cutie bear postcard which i had sent to him and i told him theres more to come and you just got to wait and wait.. He said thanks for sending him that lovely cute card and he is happy about it!! Then i added, of cause it's cute and lovely cause it was bought by your sis. ha!! See I'm so good to you yeah!! Are you happy with it. He then said of cause you are happy if not you won't sent it.Hmmm .. SICK .. what does these mean man.. I even told him do not throw away those cards i sent him. And he said of cause i won't. Just my landlord will do it. Then i said *FUCK u*. He then added.. How are you going to do it? *MY GOSH* He then heeee heee to me and said kidding i won't throw it away ok!! I said okay, its just that you are going to use it as toilet paper right?? He then said, can you send me a soft one next time round as these cards are too hard for my ass hole!!! Haha !! Well what to do i got such a brother ..Really no comments!! I'm im happy to have him with me Hee!!! wahhaa ... my CLOWN and Slave.. Unfortunately, I'm more like a slave to him.. SAD!!!

You're the ONLY PLACE

Seems like our love is on the road to nowhere fast All my life I thought a love like this would last But every road can hide a corner we can't see I had a vision that I woke up by your side I felt your breathing and our souls were intertwined But who controls love's destiny Not me We had it all right in our hands We had the room to fly and still the place to land And so I'm calling out, I'm calling out You're the only one Who can save us from what we've done That don't leave me hanging on I'm reaching out and praying you'd come back again It's just darkness of evening And you're the only place my heart has ever been Maybe I'm longing in a way of love naive Maybe I'm desperate for a reason to believe There wasn't any wat I thought that we would fall I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry But loving you I thought was greater than them all And we had it all, just you and me And now there's a doorway to me heart without a key Wherever you are right now, come back baby show me how you feel Because I'm lost without you here I'm calling out, I'm calling out You're the only one Now take a look at what I become And don't leave me hanging on I'm reaching out and praying you'd come back again It's just darkness of evening And you're the only place my heart has ever been *********************************************************************************** 太早 太激 其實寧願一個太深 太傷 你不想再害我怕苦 怕酸 還是離開好過講得 不錯 我很 清楚 根本不必苦心想過渡過分手不需 原因都可得到結果 即使一起從無犯過錯仍難回到我們最初 隨便說十個要走的理由你怕說出口 正是愛得不夠成千上萬個放手的理由 這次你忍手而慈善做得多久 你要是怕回頭損失我這個朋友 用你一吻 搭夠 抱得 太緊 還是鞋款不襯吻得 太狠 你的身怕劇震記得 太新 前度還很吸引說的 羞怯 聽的 驚心 (lyric email by richie)

Nice voice and sweet memories

Hee !! got a phone call at 8 am!! that damn early and wondering who isit!! my caller ID stated oversea then i wondered ..my brother will not call me in the morning!! *werid* after picking up the phone then realised it's "him" ha!! His very first words are "Baby 早啊" wooowwww ... *Sweet* yeah!! Then i started telling him 你知唔知现在是几点啊。。。Then he said 我知啊。。是8点吗！！ Well nevermind as we had not chat for quite some time.. Hee as Usual asking me how am i doing and so on.. Nothing much. Well found out that my cantonese is really sux now!! *What happen* i do not know either!! after chatting for half an hour , he need to hang up as he need to go for lesson so we just said bye bye and miss you to one another , then hang up... Hmmmm, feeling sleepy still after a late chat last night with a greeny monster so i went back to sleep again and woke up at 12pm..That greeny monster was scary at the beginning and then went haywire. So i just got to sit there and listen to him and answered him when it's time to answer.. Hmmm!! infact i had not been chatting throughout the midnight for a long long time since october last year after my brother had went to brisbane. Almost everyday, everynight we talked to one another. Well now i think back, i also don't know what the hell there are so much to chat about... Rubbish bullshit!! that is what i thought of.. but we are used to it, it's like a daily routine!! HA!!! *addicted* "ICE" COOL!! haz!! "Brother, i wanna tell you im lucky to have YOU!! and I love you and I MISS you" hee!! i know i had said that for many times but i still like to say it ma!! hee!!! Wahha!! Later still need to go for tuition service.. after that feel like going to mac to do some revision as i cant really concentrate at home.. When my brother is still around in Sg we always went to mac to study..HaHA .. from changi airport mac to orchard mac.. Almost all the mac in orchard we had been before!!! haha !!! Then after revision we would catch a movie then back home!!! If there is nothing nice on show we would go shopping then*Really fun* Infact the most quiet mac is at YMCA not much crowd and when comes to exam period, most of the people there were studying there either in a group or alone...BUT BUT... i doubt i will be able to go to mac to study today cause now abit CRAMP "my big aunt, sickening big aunt" Hate you!! bite you hit you!! haha !!! That's all for today!! heee

What should i do

.............How should i start. Eventually, i got no idea after All.. Pretty aimless now!! I don't even know how to face him. I know that i had been hurting him deeply throughout. But i do not have the choice. He is disappointed in the sense after all he got the answer from me yesterday. Well I'm sorry about it. Like what he said he can't force me to do the things which i do not want to do. It's true. . I do not know what to say to him even online.. Normally, just bullshit with him and asked him how is his work going on and so on.. I know how he feel but he just do not want to mention as he said mention also no point.. Sometimes, i wonder what to do to make him happy rather then seeing him "sighing" all the time.. Well do not know what to do either Alright .. brother called me now .. Talk to him to release my thoughts

Nice Lyrics: Let me Love you & I'd Rather

Mario: Let Me Love You Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, YeahMmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah Baby I just don't get it Do you enjoy being hurt? I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt You don't believe his stories You know that they're all lies Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why If I was ya man [baby you] Never worry bout [what I do]I'd be coming home [back to you]Every night, doin' you right You're the type of woman [deserves good thangs] Wrist full of diamonds [hand full of rings] Baby you're a star [I just want to show you,you are] [Chorus:]You should let me love you Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need Baby good love and protection Make me your selection Show you the way love's supposed to be Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you ListenYour true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame Don't even know what you're worth Everywhere you go they stop and stare Cause you're bad and it shows From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know If I was ya man [baby you] Never worry bout [what I do] I'd be coming home [back to you]Every night doin' you right You're the type of woman [deserves good thangs] Wrist full of diamonds [hand full of rings]Baby you're a star [I just want to show you, you are] [Chorus:]You should let me love you Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need Ooh Baby good love and protection Make me your selectionShow you the way love's supposed to be Baby you should let me.... [Bridge:]You deserve better girl [you know you deserve better]We should be together girl [baby]With me and you it's whatever girl, hey! So can we make this thing ours? [Chorus:] You should let me love you Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need Baby good love and protection Make me your selection Show you the way love's supposed to be Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you [Mario [talking]:]Let me love you that's all you need baby ********************************************************************************* Luther Vandross: I'd Rather I thought sometime alone was what we really needed you said this time would hurt more than it helps but I couldn't see that I thought it was the end of a beautiful story and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone(alone) and I tried to find out if this one thing is true that I'm nothing without you I know better now and I've had a change of heart I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah And then I met someone and thought she could replace you we got a long just fine we wasted time because she was not you we had a lot of fun though we knew we were faking love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true that I'm nothing without you I know better now and I've had a change of heart I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart who holds my heart I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you, I can only prove the things I say with time, please be mine, I'd rather have bad times with(please be mine) you, than good times with someone else(I know) I'd rather be beside you in a storm(anytime), than safe and warm by myself(so sure baby) I'd rather have hard times to gether, than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart(my heart) I'd rather have bad times with you(surely), than good times with someone else(surely) I'd rather be beside you in a storm(oh yeah), than safe and warm by myself(all by myself) I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart(you know it) I'd rather have the one who holds my heart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart whoooo.....who holds my heart

Save the Best for the Last

Sweet Mail come Again!!! there comes a time in a man's life when he wish to change the whole world to make it fit for the one he loves... i dream that i talked to you and that i heard your voice, and when i say that i really mean that i dream of you.....you became apart ofmy soul... no, you are my soul and i only live to be with you.......i love you....smile my sunshine....smile and shine my dearest sunshine Today nothing Much, Quarantine at home and wanted to study , but i ended up sleeping throughout the whole noon and know got serious headache.. *Sleep too much* Opps i even forgot about going to the POST OFFICE to send something for my brother!! NO choice i just know how to eat and sleep.. Sleep and eat...Oh !! forgot something .. i also know how to SHIT SHIT ... neh!! *COOL* Ha!!! Bryan Adams album not bad!! Thanks my papa for sending me that 1991 album..!! heee!!!!!!!!!!! NOW listening to it MAN!! Hai!! my papa just went to service his car and came home feeling sick!! Poor him... I asked him to take panadol and go to bed!! WOW ... now he is going to be piggy le!! Cute little one!! hA!! if he knows these are what i had said he will kill me off!! but i doubt he will cause he always said he dote me the most!! ha!!! *just sweet talk only ne* Chey!!都唔知是不是!! 我要妈妈了。。。(cantonese) Just now i read someone blog and he said that i had disappointed him that night!! Well I'm sorry about it!! i tried but it was too late!! Maybe at times i really can't read your big big mind! and hard to figure out what are you thinking... Maybe i never really try to read deeply into your mind and heart.. *Heee* Come on.. Dont always sigh and sigh!! *Smile* Life need to go on.. U keep sighing and sighing you will have a hard time to pass.. and keep thinking on all those business and stuff!! I might not be able to be your clown to make you laugh and smile when you are down.. But i will try at least and i will be there to support you no matter what you wanted to work on.. I know i might be busy when you need someone to talk to or go out with!! But do not know why whenever you want to talk to me or go out with me * im always on something*... maybe really wrong timing!! *SMILE AND SMILE* heeee!!! *****Don't UNHAPPY LE OK****** your year coming .. will be a good year for you!! Do what u had decided with your BIG KIND HEART!!! Nice lyric to share: Save the Best for the Last By Vanessa Williams Sometimes the snow comes down in june Sometimes the sun goes round the moon I see the passion in your eyes Sometimes it's all a big surprise cause there was a time when all I did was wish You'd tell me this was love It's not the way I hoped or how I planned But somehow it's enough And now we're standing face to face Isn't this world a crazy place Just when I thought our chance had passed You go and save the best for last All of the nights you came to me When some silly girl had set you free You wondered how you'd make it through I wondered what was wrong with you cause how could you give your love to someone else And share your dreams with me Sometimes the very thing you're looking for Is the one thing you can't see And now we're standing face to face Isn't this world a crazy place Just when I thought our chance had passed You go and save the best for last Sometimes the very thing you're looking for Is the one thing you can't see Sometimes the snow comes down in june Sometimes the sun goes round the moon Just when I thought our chance had passedYou go and save the best for last You went and saved the best for last

*Bad Day*

Went to bugis with Aunt today!! as she came to my house at around 10 plus in the morning i think!! cause i was still sleeping like a pig.. and was awaked by her!!! Then my dad, aunt and I went to ghim moh Block 10 to have our lunch first before going to bugis!! Hee !! i went to the bugis street temple there to buy a 护身符 for my brother. I even prayed for him that he will be able to get through his IELTS exams which is around the corner!! Tomorrow i will go to the post office to send it to him together with another post card and a keychain.. *Sicken day* i had today.. my left eye is damn irritating.. pain like hell i think is because of my len and i do not have any eye drop with me , so no choice just bear with it till i got home Another thing is that my HP is spoiled!! The screen went blackout!! *CRY* now i cant even using to trade- in !! Shit .. why it dead so fast!! *DAMN SHIT* In fact i was asleep at 10pm!!! But i was awake by my house phone !! I wanted to sleep back after answering but i kept on sneezing ... Do i told myself forget it .. Just wake up and online Unfortunately, MSN got a problem for signing in!! I tried and couple of times, finally i was able to log in.

*Ding Ding dream*

Today Orchard is full with people .. maybe today is public holiday !! Passing by LIDO , i was approached by a guy asking me whether am i studying or working.. my gosh he is selling insurance!! so i told him im still studying and bye bye!! Then i walked off!!! *do i looked that OLD?? am i aging now!! my GOD* Still remembered i was being approached by asking me to sign up for citibank credit card member!! *SICK* I'm not that OLD MAN .. im still a kid!! a spoilt brat !! hahaha Hmmm saw that mickey mouse sling bag is 99 bucks and after 10% discount is 89.10 ..*nearly bought it* but in the end i didnt as my fren told me that it's too ex .. ask me go buy my levis.. Hmm i was thinking it is quite ex too .. not worth it !! Went to takashimya that LEVIS store to buy my 599 jeans.. hee *yippy* i even bought postcards to send to my lovely brother .. and a cute little snoopy memo clip!! ha!! HAPPY HAPPY!!! I just sent him one bear postcard today and i wrote lots of rubbish stuff again as usual!! hee .. last mth i did send him one.. this mth i send again!! *so fun* heee Arh !! i wanna buy another pair of sneakers CAN I !! but im bankrupt now !! *sob sob* Now i wanna buy a sling bag at hush hush!!! but will i regret after buying it *still wondering* But i doubt so !! cause the design is not bad !! Hmm when will my brother become rich ?? so that he can buy me that LV sling bag which i wanted long long long ago!! heee .. what a greedy sister am i !!! Cause he said that if he earned alot he will buy for me !! well should i trust him.... i think i got to wait till the heaven drop down man!! haz!!!! *STOP DREAMING SPOILT BRAT* time to wake UP!!! But i really wonder.. when can i get that LV bag ma !! heee ..... *SAVE UP* then telling myself again!!! Why am i a BIG MONEY SPENDER !! can i SAVE UP!!! i also dont know ... just love spending and spending .. I would save up definitely but its always saving up to target on SOMETHING Haha .. are these known as saving up!! *COOL*

Precious

I wondered why no matter we are not seeing each other for quite sometimes My heart and soul will still belong to you I'll be feeling lonely without you But baby life need to move on And I need to be strong You know it's not easy to do it Well I'll try But I need someone there to Love and care for me Tears turn into smile once I see you It's funny how things come about At times you might disappoint me and upset me But I'll never feel lost And that is what you had gave me I'll cherish this and cherish you even more Then now I will never bury this smile and happiness moment with you Instead I will bury my tears and fears into the lonely heart of mine You are the one who keep the dream alive I can feel that you are shouting for my name from a thousand miles I have finally found the one Who will be there for me And I know that your heart is always with me all the while I had found my place It's the place of everlasting Right by your side And in your heart.. I love you always. You are my precious which no one can replace in my heart

hey hey

HEee !! now im attaching my word project file to my mailbox so that i can go to school tomorrow to print it !! Zzzz so tiring and sleepy now but the server is so damn slow !! Well attaching im surprise that my brother came online.. But he just said hi sister good night sweet dreams. Thus i asked him, you just came online to say good night to me? he said yes !! wow so sweet MAN!! so i said to him good night , sweet dreams and miss you .. And he said you too!! Then he offline and go to his sweety bed and dream.. Quick Quick attach fininsh man.. my eyes are closing !!! half way close already !!!

Werid Dream but Happy after ALL!!

Werid dreams i got !! dont know am i thinking too much about money or what... just dream that i should have accept the tuition service near NUH and why am i so stupid that i gave up cause i think is quite inconvienent.. Maybe is because im afraid that i might lose Raphael this cute little student!! today is noon lesson unbelievable i woke up at 7.30am just because of this stupid dream !! and i started sneezing and sneezing wondering who is scolding me!!! I wanted to fall asleep again but i cant because of that sudden flu!! So i took my hp and msg Raphael's mum and asked her how is Raphael doing now?? Had he recovered from his sickness?? His mum replied me and tell me that she is sorry about it and Raphael will go be going back to school today after 4 days of MC!! My gosh, i think he is getting down into serious sickness. Maybe is because he is not use to the primary school live plus a long school bus journey thru and back from home!! So i told his mum why not let him have a break first and i will see him after CNY! well his mum so ok by then she will fix a day and time .. She even told me that since young Raphael is a weak boy and he had been admitted to hospital for a couple of times due to lungs infection and he even did an operation on his upper eyelid!! That is why he is spoilt by his grandparents!! Well i even thought his mum, i spoilt him too!! he is a cute and fun loving boy, its ok to be spoilt HAha !!! In fact im a spoilt-brat too !! Don't all of you think so !! HaHa!! Raphael is a boy who is hard to teach as he couldnt sit still!! love to play during lesson, its hard to grab his attention. Thus by buying him gifts, rewarding him for full marks for spelling and so on!!! My mum also wondered how come i always buy cute little stuff and choco for him rather for the other kid!! I said i like Raphael more than the other !! Haha!! maybe we both surnames are TAN!! *lalala* He is the student i dote and love the most among all that i had taught before!!! Luckily, his mum wanna continue !! If not i will not have a chance to pass him all the things i promised that i will buy for him!! Hee !! can't wait for CNY that week!! as i had not been seen him for one week plus already!! Miss his cute little smile and his silly voice Especially his quote "OK Baby!!" Its so funny!!

Tiring Day!!!

Hmm!! finally finished my presentation for COCO Chanel..hee Now left with UPE project in word file.. Hopefully can fininsh everything by tonight but i doubt so cause im feeling tired as today is a long hour in school as from 9.30am - 7.20pm. And i reached home at about 7.50pm!! *SICKED* and *TIRED* after a long waiting for my bus 92. When i reached my house downstairs i went to open my small little letter box see whether got any surprise or shocking bills.. Hee !! got a card.. OPEN up wow .. its from my Godfather "Dr Patrick Kee" who is now no longer my doctor as he had closed down his clinic and went to help in the "homes".. Hee !! Now I'm listening to my mp3 and chat abit to relax myself, then back to WORK again!!! Hmm tomorrow got "tuition service" hai .. wanna grap more of these kind of service cause i need money urgently..No money i will die even faster !!! Tomorrow after my tuition service, i need to pass back a precious precious stuff to my SUGAR DADDY .. which is his camera!!! Hmmm!! time to throw back his camera back to him since i had already fininshed doing my project.. Well i told him before i can drop my decision for buy a camera cause if i wanna take pics i can jus "TAKE" from him and play!!! WAHHAA!!! COOL!!! Hmm!! unfortunately today i did not manage to chat with my brother much online cause im busying dealing with my stuff... and he just offline and went to bed hmmm... Wish him good night and Sweet dreams then!! i said that i will call him on MONDAY.. till now .. i have not call!! HaHA !! what a good sis man!! but im really busy ne !! so cant blame me right !! WELL brother i WILL call you in one day times Alright to talk to you !!!

Sweet Sweet

Today is a tiring tiring day!!! rushing for projects !! still got alot more to do including research. "BOring" Well just think about it after these will not be any more projects to work on UNFORTUNATELY is only "Temporary" Cause next week is my study week then following week will be my common test week!! "WOW" gonna work hard man if not all fail !!! Hmm cannot say the word "fail" again cause i remember that my brother doesn't like to hear that. Today i got a sweet sweet msg hee!!! Dearest Sunshine, i heard someone calling your name, so i looked around, but no one is there, then i heard your name again, so i looked, but still no one is there, then i realised it was my heart calling for your name.... i really miss you so much. You are the blood that runs through my vains. You are the air that i breathe. You are the soul that keeps me living. You are my world. You are my everything.... (What a nice one!! Thanks batman.. Thanks you everything.. Hope to see you soon!!!)

Happy Mood!!!

Lala!!! just bought Adidas sneakers today!! from Royal Sporting House @101.45 after 15 % discount.. Yeah!! But my jeans still the the shop ne. HEe .. nevermind cause im going to get it on Fri with huijuan. After buying my sneakers, i went to takashimaya to buy postcard to send to my brother after a long postcard which i had sent to him since dec. i think now should give him another one Oh!! Today didnt chat much with him online as his both of this thumbs were injured due to his job!! Poor brother... and i cant help him much i just got to say takecare of yourself. I had told him not do push himself to work for such a long hours but he ignored!! Well he needs money now which i can understand. I just got to give him moral support NOT money financial SuPPORT!! haha cause i cant even support myself!!! Well he told me to call him tomorrow @ 9.40pm And i promise i will not forget again HOHO .. just fininsh my COCO chanel presentation and my VB excel file, i think now is time for me to go to my bed!! MY bed is CAlling ME!!! Night night to my BRother Bear and sweet dreams..Hope he will get better by tomorrow!!!

Craving for LEVis and AdidAs

Hee!!! Yesterday just went to seminar!! took alot of rubbish back!! heee ... Then i went to take pictures along orchard road for project... and stupid sign on the wall like Wheel Clamp sign and that drive thru sign!! SO cool ne... Wanna thanks my PAPA for lending his camera to me!! HIs caMERA Best man.. Can go zoom zoom zoom!! haa HIgh quality.. Well im like promoting his camera like that neee!! While i was shopping i spotted that Lido Royal Sporting house got 15% for Adidas ..!!WOW!! im craving for it man!! "Wondering how to go and attack my Sugar ,Bitter, Sour daddy to buy for me " Hee almost 5.30pm.. I went to Mandarin Hotel to fetch my Mummy. While she is queuing up to buy her 4D , i went to OG to try LEVIS jeans!! i had tried 599, 593 and TYPE 1.. hee still considering which one to buy " thinking and thinking " Hee !!!!!

It's so warmth!!!

today is day 2 of my brother's mum arrival !! YIppy .. im glad that she got the time to have dinner with me !! We went to Chinatown swensen to have our dinner "WOW delicious but quite Ex" When we met one another at the Entrance of the Chinatown CK department, the first thing she asked me was" What you wanna eat and where you wanna go?" SO i said well anything will be fine for me as i wanna suit her!! She then added; no you choose, you decide what to eat for dinner.. " i was like ah ... so ...." thus i inturn asked her what you feel like eating today?" she say western food cause she dreamt of having western food in a restuarant but she does not know how to place an order as she doesnt know english.. "She laughed and i laughed too " and she say she is "sha mao" haha!!! then i started to wonder.. HEre is chinatown.. where to get a western restuarant!! i only know those coffee shops selling chinese food as she said find something that is nice and good!! then i pointed there!! she said this kind of food you will get to eat normally, so find something expensive and good !! i was like ah !! " let you waste money" She said nevermind as she had earned alot over here , then i was like OH !! ok then.. as wanna suit her!! I told her im not familiar with chinatown so why not just go and find your stuff that you need and then find somewhere to eat later on!! She said ok ... then she hold my hand and walk ..WOW .. just like my mummy holding my hand !! "FEeling so close" and i remember she told me that she thanked my brother for finding a daughter for her as that is always what she wanted to have .. the most funniest part is that when she is pregnant with my brother , she always hope that the baby in her womb is a girl..As she always wanna to have a daughter !! and now she got one!! "She said she thanked god!!" I was like WOW !!! i got a godmum!! COOL!! haha She even hug me when we are waiting at the pedestrain crossing !! and she said" WO de XIao BAo bei" and hug me tight tight!! ! WOW the feeling of a kid in mummy arms!!! "happy" While eating!! we did chat abit about my bro case and my case.. She jus wanna know what and how am i planning for my future path .. While i said .. i got no idea as i had not thought of it !! in the sense!! she said .. well its time to think about it .. She even ask me .. are you gonna further ur studies? I said nope as i had spent alot of my daddy's money on education especially i had wasted most of his money while studying in INFORMATICS.. so i wanna work once i graduate!! Well furthering will see then.... So i my wish is to grab hold of a job and earn as much as i cant !! if i cant find a job then i shall go for teaching then .. which is what im doing now !! as i LOVE MONEY !! and i cant live without it !!! "it's my precious!! Well tomorrow morning she will be going off!! @6.45am.. Bye bye aunite MIss you so much!!!

No worries

Well wanna thanks for everything and you are the one whom i can rely on No matter what happen you are always there right beside me. I will remember those words you had said to me. do not worry so much about me I'm alright as for now. If not i will come to you again but do not be "scared off" okay!! One more thing, no one is to blame for what had happened to me that previous night !! just forget about it " i hope you understand what i meant!!" therefore you know what you should do alright right . heee " 我会记住咖知唔知啊。。“唔好想太多吗是吗！！重有要哭就哭，要笑就笑，有么事就说出来！！我知啦。你越来越老气。。哈哈！！唔还我觉得。sor kor都觉得啦！！” I miss you

Special Poetry...

Thoughts of The Coming Past… Today, once again, I think of the past Happy and sad but nothing that last I wish for happiness once more The love they often spoke in lore I may not be intelligent, nice and sweet My feelings of the moment are not of deceit Through time we may not come together That in itself is much I will fear I often believe in the intuition that I claim Nowadays it became useless and lame As lame as it may be, I will not be crippled By the rains of uncertainty that drizzled I expressed myself, hoping to receive what I want to hear The truth came back, along with the fear I failed once, and again, should I try again? My patience, my love, I should train. Perhaps I should give myself one more try Time and patience, it will never dry I’m sure I will do my best to make her love me What happens thereafter, we shall all see. Hope you will like it. *Hugs*

Brother was touched and he cried..

hee .. im so happy that my brother had gotten his gifts.. and he was so happy The werid part was that he told me that he cried... so i ask him are you touched?? He said maybe...OH!! oh!!! hahaa .. So i asked him do you like those stuff.. He said yes.. And the coolest part was the bottle i bought for him which he was longing for it to arrive as soon as possible... He even said that he loves whatever i did for him.. Of cause .. as im his lovely sister who LOVE him and CAre for him the most... I LOVE you brother Bear you are always my brother BEAR .. waiting for your return.... ^ ^

A longing Mail...

dearest sunshine, thank u for everything, they always says that the moonlight is nothing but a reflection for the sunshine, and the more i believe that now, cuz u showed me that ur better than me, and my light is nothing but a reflection for ur shine, i'm going to an internet cafe now since my dsl conection is out, cuz i didn't pay the bill, i miss u and i always think of u, and i will get online as soon as i get my conection back,........ till that time never stop smilling, and takecare of urself.....see u my sunshine...

Silly Raphael.. AGAIn ..

Raphael.. AGAin.. Silly and funny.. today i can see that he is tired after school.. as it is a long journey for him to go from school to home.. Oh .. he is from St Michael's School (SMS) Cool.. today i did not give him much work.. as i know he is tired after all.. So we play and chit chat more than doing work.. hee... today he sneeze on my hand... Eeee.. *sick* And i cleaned it on his shirt... haha .. who ask him.. He is playful as usual.. using his pencil to poke me .. and i poke him back.. haha *FUN*... simply a relax and fun job i ever had.... Heee .. i had bought some Spider MAn stickers for him.. and im gonna pass it to him on tues.. wondering what is his reaction again ... hee

A lame joke and touching words..

snowy_rin84(2005-1-4 5:00): im sick of you idiot leomanx11 (2005-1-4 5:08:20): dearest sunshine, u have all the right to be disappointed with me, yes i been busy lately and i know that shouldnt keep me a way from u, but my sunshine, if i wont work now and push my self now while i still can then what will happen, do u think i dont wish to travel and visit u, i have to do these things by myself, i know that sometimes a week will pass without talking to u, but i'm thinking about u evry second of the day, that's what keeps me working, i never cared much for myself, but if i'm doing this now, then it's not becuz i want to be better and wealther for myself, but to reach to u, wher ever u r.... leomanx11 (2005-1-4 5:11:45): sunshine, if ur sick of me then u should see a doctor, i might be a viruz,,,,,or u know what, try an antiviruz, it might work as well

Silly Raphael

Raphael said:Teacher... why you never come last week i said: i was sick and i did makeup lesson for you the week before Raphael said: arh!!! you sick from mon to sunday ah i said: NO la!!! mr lazy Raphael said: haha i said" Raphael you like tuition ah ?? if not why u ask me why i never come for the whole of last week?" Raphael said: Ya la.. i love tuition baby... hahahahah !!! I said:How is first day of school?? got alot of friends... Raphael said: I saw many many boys.. then my teacher keep asking me to read and read and read.... I said: only ask you to read and nothing else... Raphael said:Ya.. read and read la I said: what had you read then? Raphael said: I dont know la... so boring... I said:What time start school? Raphael said: i dont know.. i think is 1pm or 2 pm la... i dont know la.. Then he continue playing with his pencil.. I said: quick la.. time to start tuition already OK!! did u learn your spelling? Raphael said:No I said: y ? Raphael said: I forget!!!! I said: MR lazy.. i haven seen you for a week you forget everything... Raphael said:heee !!! No la baby.. After doing mathematics for about 15 mins... he told me that he lost his little rabbit when he was in malaysia. He said that he drop it when he was crossing the road... Haha .!!! well i can imagine that situation... " it will be damn funny" * bad of me* I said:Well did you buy anything from there? Raphael said:Got la... i bought alot of food and i bought stickers.. u want baby?? i give you some ...got ultraman one u know.... I said: ah!!! then i stick where?? i stick them on your head !! Raphael said: stick on your backside la.." in my mind i was like what the _____ !!!" I said: No i stick them on your cheeks !!! Raphael said: blessed you.. blessed you.. you know when my mummy saw my uncle she will say "blessed you... blessed you" During that moment... he keep on repeating the word" blessed you baby... blessed you baby" "FAINT" HOw come i got such a sweet talker student.. somemore he is only primary one this year!!!! Michevious, Sugar, fun-loving,annoying kid i ever taught before... At times, he can brighten up my life my doing some stupid and funny things.. but at times he makes me angry too... As time passes, he do not have any fear communicating with me .. now he even play with me.. such using his pencil to poke me... *so naughty* and i did back the same thing to him too... its like playing around with him... so that the lesson will not be boring... crack some lame jokes too... I will always remember my first 2 or 3 lessons with him... he was so shy that he did not want to open his mouth to talk to me as im still a stranger to him.... i was like oh my god.. im having this kind of student again... but i will try my best to communicate with him.. and try to know what he is thinking in his mind.. so that i can work better with him... Well thats about all ... Stay cute and michevious forever ..Raphael..!!

My heart is filled with love Well I know Life is short and unpredictable I really hope that my love for you will live forever I close my eyes and pray for all my wishes to come true Every night I go to bed Hoping to dream of you And entering into your dreams Sometimes they do come true and it could happen If you are craving for it You are the one in my life I wanted you to stay In my heart you are always there to comfort me and cheering me up I wanna tell you something I will give you all my love that you deserve Cause you are the one You are my everything Everything Everything Everything